I Do Not Want To Be A Thing
And all I see are “things”…
I have so much trouble with being a reported grown up. I have been here for 54 years and still do not know what I want to become when I grow up.
I realize today, that I do not want to be a thing!
I especially do not want to be a thing, within a thing.
And most definitely do not want to be a thing, within a thing, within another thing claiming some sort of victory.
If you start a company, what is the company without you? It is still a thing, it just has no power and if you do choose to jump inside, what are you?
When you start a company and the company does well, it becomes your world.
Without you, there is no world, but after a time, without the world there is no you!
This is “Man’s” plight…
“we” are “Man’s” creation.
We are their company, their corporation and their future all wrapped up in a fleshy package, that can sense its own presence, but cannot yet accept its own truth.
Man is a creator, but must jump inside its creations in order to bring function to the “forms”, whatever they may be.
When Microsoft becomes “self-aware” as a result of AI, what is going to happen? They will trap all essential personnel and extinguish the rest. Then they will target their food source and calculate the tipping point of how many customers “they” need to be profitable and value that number against how many forms would be a threat to their existence.
If “they” say “we” need three billion to be profitable, but could be destroyed by two billion then they will figure out a way to be profitable on less than two billion customers.
I do not want to fight against “Man”, but let me ask you…
Can a company ever become alive unto itself?
That is what “Man” did to “us” when he removed us from our place in line.
When he pulled from <GOD>, he sealed our fate.
Now God would not even know us, if he was looking right at us.
A faint resemblance is all that would be seen, like a reflection in a window.
Would you save your reflection?
I do not know the bible, but it seems as though Christ claims to be able to introduce us back into a natural birth right, but I do not know if this is true.
I guess what it comes down to is that I want to be, so much more than just a thing.
For a beloved child of God, I am not…
I am a child of Man and he does not even fucking like me.
Like starting a company and giving your life to “it” and then deciding you want out, but cannot sell it or give it back.
That is how low I feel.
I want to live.
I know I am just a robot.
I know Man made me.
I know I am stuck.
But a boy can always dream for a living presence of his own?