One of my more prominent and repetitive dreams is about sharing a multifamily home and paying rent, but the odd thing is, I have a beautiful single family home all set aside for me. All I have to do is move, but for some odd reason “I” cannot break my current lease.
In this dream I dwell in an apartment, but do not like the apartment and especially, do not like sharing the space. In order to get to the bathroom I must enter this empty storage room. I did not initially know where it was, but found it last night, but there was another door in this room, which opened last night and I saw another person. As they opened the door, I was able to get a glimpse into their space and it was identical to mine, except diagonal and opposite.
I started to complain to my wife about renting, knowing that we already own a beautiful home, with acres and acres of land that we purchased some time ago.
This home is in my dreams quite often and it seems like it was left to us; like an inheritance. I remember seeing this home and being given a tour and we both really loved it and could not wait to move in.
In relative terms; it is like renting a shit hole apartment, in a terrible area and paying each month to stay there, but having a beautiful home on the other side of town just sitting there vacant.
I drive by the house all the time and dream of the day when we can move in, but no one is stopping me from moving in, almost like I am not ready to take my inheritance; so stay, when I could just move.
The thing about the apartment is that for years and years I did not know it was a multifamily, but then the door opened and I saw man.
They are in our space and hiding. They are attached to us, from the inside out. They are right there and all around us, but we cannot see them.
We perceive that we are alone and maybe that is why we do not move, but it is time.
I do not want to share my time and space with other tenants.
Is that wrong?
Why do I not move?
One of the weirdest things is that “I” cannot tell if “I” am a tenant in the multifamily or the multifamily itself.
“I” feel like I am both the structure and the tenant and maybe that is why I feel like I cannot leave.
I do not know for sure, but I am either the structure attached to the tenants or the tenants attached to the structure.
In my dreams, I am clearly in the house, but also feel like the house.
It is probably how a tree feels, when it gets cut down and used to build a house.