After a great deal of assessment and thought I have come to a conclusion.
The best I am ever going to be able to do, is to try to be a good devil; or a bad saint.
Is it better to be a devilish saint or a saintly devil, or is it the same thing?
I think it would be harder to be a saintly devil, so would hold more value, but I could be wrong.
I think being a saintly devil is the best I will be able to do, without sparking an evolutionary change, but that means asking God to make it permanent?
This is the problem or concern with an evolutionary change; its permanency.
It is the permanent part, that terrifies me.
I cannot fathom being any one way, or being any one thing, forever.